L is for the way you look at me.

what is it when the person you care for doesn't even care about your feelings?
When she or he doesn't even want to hear what you want to say?
when she or he got annoyed when you bring up some topics?
When you cannot talk about anything , everything...

Its sad and I'm 100% certain it isn't love.

When I care for someone I really care about everything he needs to say or want to tell me.
Communication. I just really cherish that.

I recently came across some profiles of random people. Men mostly. It is really interesting to see their definition of the dream girl. Or how they picture a perfect relationship.I remember that man saying he wants "his chick to shut it more than opening it" I was shocked. And I was saying to myself " wow men nowaday..." I believe he was 24.
I think -respect- is missing a lot in relationship.It is like there's no respect , no limits anymore. Woman acting like men , men acting like jerks.

I think because couples , people dont communicate with respect anymore they ended up not wanting to communicate at all anymore. It is such a waste. When communication to my eyes is such a wonderful thing.

The beauty of a relationship. Sharing tears and smiles , doing your best to make it right. Being there always , no matter what. Never let your lover down. Communication is the first step to everything. But people are so afraid to hear the truth , or sometimes they just dont like hearing their wrongs, which is wrong. I know I've many flaws. But I sincerely always want to hear my wrongs. If someone need to tell me something , I'll always be there to listen. Even though it might hurt me. I wasn't always like that. But I grew and changed.

Someone told me :

_ " i'm here for the long haul, even if it means i have to pick you up and carry you the rest of the way."

But then because I shut the door , he wasn't there when I cried , when I was sick , down and depressed. Lonely and sad. Yet I kept hanging to that sentence he told me.Thinking he will feel me from where he is. And maybe will he catch me when I fall.

I still believe he is different. There's something about him, that made me feel this way.Something I cant really express with words.
I would trade all these hours , days , weeks and months I spent with others in a heartbeat and spend them all with only him. To get to know him. And no one else.

a Man who loves you , should always feel the need to make the woman he cares for feel safe.